I've spent this week wondering: Wondering why Alysa gave me her IF: Gathering ticket. Wondering what to expect. Wondering about the women in the IF Facebook groups. Wondering what God has for me. Wondering what to expect or even if I should have expectations. Wondering if God has something to teach me, show me, tell me. Wondering.
Yesterday I focused on laying all the wonderings down. The God of the Universe owes me nothing. Jesus is enough. His presence in my life is a gift of His unfailing love. As I faded into sleep and whispered the dreamy prayers of my heart, I confessed to Jesus that the break from routine and sitting in His presence this weekend was enough for me.
At 6:05 the alarm buzzed, and my mind was instantly full.
"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope; my soul waits for the Lord, more than watchman wait for morning, more than watchman wait for morning." Psalm 130:5-6
"My soul finds rest in God alone. My salvation comes from Him." Ps 62:1
"My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods, with singing lips my mouth will praise you." Ps 63:3
Turns out my true desire for this weekend is to rest in Jesus, to have little to no responsibility, to just be with Him. The burden of expectations has been lifted.
I'm already breathing more deeply and slowly, enjoying the slowed rhythm of waiting. My soul rests and waits. He will satisfy me, not the music, not the speakers, not the women with whom I interact. I trust He will use those good things, but He doesn't need to. He is enough.
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Love! I'm praying he fills your soul with so much of himself!
Good word! I spent some time praying and reflecting yesterday and came to a similar conclusion myself. :) I'm excited for this weekend and praying the same for both of us.
Praying for peace and rest, friend! Enjoy your time in Austin :)
I'm so excited for you to have a couple of days of just being in God's presence. Just being. :)
Choosing to focus on the benefits that come from waiting are so cross cultural in our fast-paced, instant gratifying world. Thank you for the reminder that there is so much joy to be found in resting in Jesus. Enjoy your time this weekend!
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